Is it 2012 yet? Is it? Please somebody tell me it is!
If time can be described as brutal, then that is what life has been this last half of 2011.
Two years ago I went through a year of religion classes and was finally baptized at the not-so-tender age of 40. During that year of study and research, it was impressed upon the class as a whole that God is all wise, all knowing, kind and loving and that HE had a plan for all of us. Also that within that plan that HE has created there will be trials and tests of faith, but nothing more than what HE knows we can handle.
The last five months have really gotten me to thinking back on those classes in general, and that one lesson in particular. How much can a person, in general, take all at once?
Death?
Destruction?
Loss?
Financial ruin?
Bad health?
What do you think? One or two at a time? Three max, right? How about ALL of them? Yep, that's right, I didn't make a typo back there, I am serious.
What do you think? One or two at a time? Three max, right? How about ALL of them? Yep, that's right, I didn't make a typo back there, I am serious.
Death... about 3 months back a very dear family member of mine...one I grew up with and considered my best friend for most of my younger years was killed in an auto accident.
Destruction.... roughly six weeks ago, while my kiddo and I were coming home one afternoon, a seemingly oblivious and mildly ignorant individual decided that playing with his car stereo was more important than paying attention to traffic and totaled my car.
Loss....got that covered too as my biggest fears were realized when it was confirmed that my Dad, the man who raised me and whom I will always call "Daddy" has Alzheimer's and is well on his way down that slippery slope of brain damage and memory loss. Also add into this one the amazing man i have had the honor of calling my (step)Dad who just received confirmation of stage 4 lung cancer and who will most likely not see the actual turning of the year.
Financial ruin...check that one off as well. My husband and the primary provider of our home was let go less than a week before Thanksgiving, with no warning. So poof goes the income, the insurance, and the stability of our little domicile.
So, lets see, what am I forgetting.... Oh yeah! Bad health! In August, due to my long association with the inner demon called multiple sclerosis, my luck finally ran out. I lost the feeling in both legs and the right half of my body. Thanks to the miracles of modern medicine, i have only permanently lost the feeling in my right arm, the rest came back. (have I mentioned i am right handed?) but the damage is permanent and irreversible.
So what does all this rambling have to do with my class and the lessons I mentioned earlier? I have come to understand that no one is infallible, including priests... and I am now fairly convinced that ...
A. God is a misnomer, it should be Goddess
B. SHE is pms-ing big time
C. SHE is seriously pissed off at me
D. "kind, loving and gentle" is NOT in my immediate future
C. SHE is seriously pissed off at me
D. "kind, loving and gentle" is NOT in my immediate future
E. if I am totally wrong on points A-D, then He must think I am a damn body builder with shoulders big enough to carry the world!
So I think that 2012 cant get here fast enough because in this particular case.... change is not only good, its welcomed and it sure as hell cant be much worse than what we have now!
So I think that 2012 cant get here fast enough because in this particular case.... change is not only good, its welcomed and it sure as hell cant be much worse than what we have now!
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